Finding my way - part 3

[Meghan]

We just talked. I asked what his plans were going forward. He was confused, and asked in terms of what. I said that he was talking about being unhappy and leaving, and I was wondering what he was planning on doing around that. He seemed a bit confused but said he's going to pack up and ship things in the next few days. I asked if that meant that he had plans to leave, too, and he said in about a week to stay with his sister.

He asked if there was anything else that we needed to take care of. I said I didn't know because I'd never done this before.

This all feels really, really real again.

I did, however, manage not to cry during the whole thing. I can't say I was positive, but I think kind and matter of fact would probably cover it.

He cried last night and today asked if there was anything of his here that I wanted to keep. Moments like that make things even harder. Those things are hallmarks of the guy I fell in love with.

I feel like I'm losing so much.