I'm like you - it's hard not to feel like you're spinning your wheels.
I will say this: it's just time.
AND the one thing that time makes clearer and clearer is that you will NOT want to return to the way things were. You will demand better. You will demand better from yourself and better from your H. The end result is that you will be in a better place at some point during this journey.
Do you have an IC? I've been meeting with one for about 2 months now. I think it's positive for me, and since that's the only part of this that I have any control over, then it's worth it!
