I really do love her that much. I want to take her to the top of the tallest building and scream out to the world how much I love her. I would literally give up everything I have to have her back as my wife -- my assets, my friends, my career.
I know that I have to let her go in order to have any chance of getting her back. That's what DR (and this forum) has taught me. It's just really, really hard. It's the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, and maybe the hardest thing I'll ever do.
In the beginning, I realize that I had way too many discussions with her -- discussions about my feelings, discussions about our future, discussions about why our marriage failed. I've even talked myself into believing that I never truly loved her, and shared that possibility with her (big mistake). Each time I went down that path, it made sense logically, but it felt so wrong and felt like I was lying to myself. Like 25 said, I just need to STFU and take a breather.
M: 15 years BD: 6/25/14 EA/PA: starts 5/14/14 11/30/14 - A ends 5/15/15 - D is finalized. 11/28/15 - Start of new LTR with a wonderful woman (and still going strong)!
