Finding my way - part 3

[Meghan]

Thanks for the vote of confidence, mdu, but I'm not sure I pulled off emotionally strong all that well. Although I wasn't super emotional, I wish that I hadn't made so many points about things being fixable. There was a lot of silence and I felt like I needed to say something, and perhaps even that he expected me to say something, not that I really know what.

I do seem to be able to keep some of the emotions somewhat under wraps now - which is a big deal for me, because I'm really, really emotional most of the time anyway. I was surprised I managed to not cry for as long as I did, and that I didn't turn into a weepy, gasping mess when I did.

I appreciate that you were able to ask your H. to leave - that must have been really hard. I fear I may have to do the same. I was talking to my dad about this last night, and he pointed out a few times that H. has indicated that he won't be working on the marriage any time soon, and if he's not doing that, living in close quarters is going to be extraordinarily difficult.