I feel rather rejected and hopeless today. But on the other hand after all of this drama I feel slightly more "normal". I am getting a little bit of appetite back, I actually ate 2 meals yesterday! So that must mean I am getting over it a little bit. For the past month I have been eating about 2-3 meals per week and felt nauseated all the time. I kind of got used to that. Saved money on food!
As much as I have lost hope, I think back to a week ago. Maybe we were not going to reunite, but things we definitely on the positive side. He was contacting me almost daily, curious about me and being friendly. So maybe we can get back there if I repeat the DB things I did last time.
He has also admitted sadness and confusion several times. Confusion about what - I do not know but I will grab on to that as possible uncertainty about whether he might want to be with me. Uncertainty is better than nothing, right?
Now what remains is being strong. Not contacting him. Not spying. Hardest things in the world.
Have a great day! Hugs, LisaB
Me: 34 H: 30 M: 4 years BD: 6/15/14 He moved out 6/30/14 OW1: EA then PA after BD Now he's dating multiple OWs I'm over it and moving on.
