Bright - You have been at this exactly 1 year longer than I have. I simply do NOT know how you have hung in there this long, and that goes for others on this board who have hung in even longer. This past year felt like just existing alot of the time. Alot of good things have come from all the pain, but I want to LIVE. I do admire everyone still standing - don't get me wrong. That is indeed love being tested a million times over. But, I'm 51. Time's a wastin'. Do you ever feel like that, Bright? I know the little signs can be really encouraging, and you certainly know him best, so you will know what's best for you. Go with your gut, and if that means hanging in a bit longer, do so. I, too, keep remembering those 'spew' things he said and did, and they were pretty bad - something I'm not sure I can ever really get past anyway...Keep moving Bright. You may soon find yourself having an 'awakening' of your own. Make it a great day tomorrow!
Me 53, XH 57 M 20 (+1.5) years, no kids BD June '13 H moved out July '13 Confirmed long-suspected PA Feb '14 H filed for D Nov. '14 D March '15
