afraid I have waited too long #3

[nit84]

I still want to work on things to possibly facilitate a new beginning.

Behind the scenes I am protecting myself legally and setting myself to move on without my W and will be fine if that happens.

I would prefer if we could work things out though. No expectations just hope

I am not trying to date anyone because I don't have the desire to at the moment. If I were to be asked out by a woman I am not sure what I would say.


My W always accused me of being controlling and needing to have things my way. Those are her feelings and she is allowed to have them.

I believe my W misunderstood sometimes what I was saying and why I was saying it. Hence, I was "coming across" to her in a way that she didn't like. Without compromising myself I am trying to be careful not to be misunderstood anymore.

I know that I wasn't the best H but I know I can be better.

Am I not suppose to keep standing for my M until the D papers are signed?

I guess I am enmeshed still because we live under the same roof and it hard to be completely detached but I really am trying to do that.