So the W texted me on her drive to work, first about our S then about her Job and then her brother ... in the past I was not always open to talking .. reading the 5LL I think this was one of her issues with me, so in fear that it hurts my detach .. I feel if I can just listen and validate with these talks it builds small positives. Felt like we were at least talking and connecting somewhat up till she got to work. totally quiet and dark after that, she did just txt telling me she needs S trunks and goggles for swimming. Guess I will take this morning as a positive .. baby steps ...
About 1/2 way through the 5LL I really feel like a fool... reading this forum and that book (Still waiting on DB and DL) I know I could have avoided this mess 2 years ago .. but here I am praying its not to late to salvage it all. I miss her and my family more than I thought possible
