I want to change as a person and if that means gettin her back or loosing her so be it. I just dont want to make these mistakes again or hurt anyone like this again. I do want my marriage saved but more importantly i want to change myself. I want peace of mind. I want my mojo back, i want to be carefree and laid back but also determined and goal orientated. I am usually a perfectionist and try to perfect everything and i need to know whats in my control and what i have to accept.
When i accept i get feelings of negativity and i dont want that. I want to accept and feel good about or or neutral on things i dont agree on. I want to learn to accept.
I want to understand my wife.
And i want to apologies for my manner in which i stereotyped people that wore shorts.
