But I often get the distinct impression that, on some level, he wants me to SUFFER.
Even he admits I have done nothing terrible in our M, (after he gave up the too many toiletries/canvas shopping bags/dishwashing detergent tactic).
He KNOWS he is doing things, has done things, which are incredibly hurtful. I don't think his main goal is to hurt me, I'm just collateral damage.
But then there's this nasty thing where it seems he really wants to hurt me in retaliation for something.
And at those times, he doesn't apologize for being nasty, whereas at other times he later says he's sorry for this or that thing he said/did. -----------------------------------
Believe me, I am giving this guy NO AMMO WHATSOEVER. So what is driving this I guess is just his anger that things are not panning out for him as he'd hoped.
I kicked him out, and I KNOW he's mad about that. There isn't a long line of "Kitty" lining up to fill his bed at his friend's house.
His wife is looking hot and moving on, and meanwhile, having a great time!
He's stuck between a rock and a hard place with no idea how to get out. So he figures he'll just try and find a replacement for said wife... or something.
And it's not working out too well.
So I guess I answered my own question, not that it makes it any easier to tolerate. I know it's not about me, it's him, but still. Cheez.... ----------------------------------
The ONLY thing I'm doing is GALing, being happy, upbeat, looking great, being friendly, 180ing, and generally DBing.
I know Wonka said that this makes them MAD.
I guess that's true.
But I am a sensitive person and it does hurt me when he lashes out when I've done nothing.
It's hard not to defend myself, but I just STFU...STFU...STFU... and I don't engage.
I just let him fizzle out on his own.
But it stings sometimes.
My plan is to "Kill Him with Kindness".
I wonder how long that will take. Do you think they could pinpoint it as a cause of death on an autopsy?
Time to go clear brush and get all scratched up in the brambles. Add in all the mosquito bites and I'm looking like someone used me for a pincushion.
That's really messing with my bare legs/short skirt plan/sleeveless top for the weekend, but so it goes!
Do you think a spray tan will cover that up?
---GGG
Me 54 Him 63 M 23 T 29 0 Kids Funny Farm of Rescues 12/12 OW-- 5/13 ILYBINILWY: A denied 9/13 Proof OW: ENDED 2/14 Got D papers on my BD I kicked him out for my sanity 9/14 He wants to "talk"?
