When you see him, take all of the great things you've done for yourself in the last three weeks and recall how they felt. Remember the people here who are supporting you and the words of encouragement you've heard. Remember how the moment you're in, however painful, is only one among millions, and think about how you'd like to remember it (if you even do) fifty years from now.
That's the armor that will help you be detached and listening with curiosity rather than expectations when you finally have to interact with him.
I'll be thinking of you!
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15