Really hurting

[amacin]

Well today wasn't a great day. I broke down and felt like everything was doomed. But I did not do this Infront of H. So I can be proud of myself for that.
H sold his bike which was one of his most loved possessions. I'm confused. I have no idea why he did it. He didn't tell me about it before hand. I asked him where it was because I was worried it had been stolen. Then I freaked our thinking he sold it to get money for a lawyer. But I have no proof of that either so I'm freaking myself with no proof. I'm trying to stay calm and think positive thoughts and remind myself there is still hope. It's just really hard.