Feeling really sad tonight. H went into work this morning, has been gone all day. At 6:15 he said he was having a scotch with a friend and would head home after that. Three hours later he's not home. No call to say goodnight to d. I texted to see if he was ok. He said he's fine but he got to talking and sipping and he's not sober enough to drive yet.
Ok, I'm glad he's not driving. That's good. But I'm leaving tomorrow morning for 6 days, he's been gone all day. It's just hitting me that it's pretty obvious he doesn't care much. That makes me sad.
The part that actually hurts the most is that my daughter doesn't even ask where he is anymore. He's always at work and rarely home to even tuck her into bed. I know he loves her but gosh, he's just not there for her. His taking her to karate or even to camp is a very new thing, only since BD. He is home maybe once every three weeks for dinner.
Do I even matter to him? I know he loves our d but he doesn't really seem to want to be involved with her.
He seems to just want to pursue his career. He's always at work, always "having a drink with the guys at the studio", working late.
