one day at a time

[twinmom]

I know mind reading/figuring out what they are thinking is frowned upon here but can anyone help me because it's absolutely driving me bonkers!

During my blow up (I really need help learning to process this anger better because I seem to blow up about every other week) I was yelling at H that I was tired of playing happy family at church and that the life we are living isn't real... the life of come home from work to a lovely dinner, have enjoyable conversation about the day and then family time with the kids. I told him I didn't want him to go to church with us anymore, he said he was Catholic and needed to go anyway (ummmmmmmm sure as he'll are not practicing the faith)

So fast forward to today, I get the kids ready for church and H gets in the car with us. I just gave him a "look" as he knows I won't blow up in front of the kids.

Can someone please give me some insight as to why he "agrees" to move out, to not go anywhere as a family, to not try and kiss me...... and then does it anyway??
He tells me now that when we divorce is up to me, he wants me home with the kids and he tells me now we can keep the marriage for "financial" reasons for as long as I want. But in the same breath he told me he is still holding on to hope that OW will take him back and he has no feelings for me.
So I really don't understand his actions and his words.