First post, confused

[asat82]

So I have had no contact since that evening she came over after I told her that I wouldn't live in an open marriage and she agreed to end things with him. She said that she would like to get together 1 day this week after she ended things with him. I dont know what to expect or if I should try to expect anything. I feel fairly certain that it will be D logistics, but who knows, maybe she will surprise me, she has changed so quickly in the past. I don't know if she has ended things with him or not as she has been visiting him all of this past week. I guess I will just have to wait and see, I have given up on doing any snooping as I do not think that would help me at all anymore, I know enough.

I have been reading 5 love languages and am debating on which languages my wife speaks. She wanted us to read this long long ago, before I knew there was a problem (couple of years ago) but didnt get too far with it. I wish I could go back and hit myself and tell the former me what I needed to do. I dont know if I should slowly try to reach out in one of those languages or just remain dark, but confident and pleasant only. I also watched some cheesy movie about a situation similar to mine with a happy ending that made me cry a good bit.

On to myself... I had a good time with my buddy hanging out at his business with just him, we got a good bit accomplished and spent the whole day there which let me get through a day without dwelling. It is hard not to wake up thinking about her. I seem to be able to control my thoughts more as the day goes by, but waking up she is always in my mind. Did some climbing this week, planning on going to a baseball game with a friend one day this week, and taking care of a lot of things in my small rent-a-room prepping for my trips and impending move back home after. Don't know if wife will be moving out immediately or not. I would hope not as it will give some time to show my 180s, which are hard to do while being dark.

Well back to reading some more 5 LL before getting up and going out for a bit to enjoy the day.

~asat