The well trodden path

[chip247]

I am pretty confused at the moment, we just got back from a family vacation to Cuba that was booked up before this whole mess took hold & I guess I gave myself a lot of pressure about how things worked out on the vacation deciding one way or the other what would happen with our relationship. We really only kept the booking for the sake of our s15 who was really looking forward to his holiday, but little has changed between the wife & I with her still being very frosty towards me & absolutely no closeness between us! I took a couple of backslides on the vacation because it seemed a good opportunity to talk while walking on the beach etc!
The thing I still struggle with is that quite often she will almost forget herself & start to talk about things we'll do together in the future but if I challenge her feelings about me she will simply say 'I don't know'. So it seems there are still doubts in her mind? trouble is the longer this goes on the more I wonder if I can keep up the hard work? I know I need to change but I wonder if she can change & if she doesn't/can't do I want to be with her?