The well trodden path

[chip247]

Ok thanks for the feedback guys & gals.
I think I may have been reluctant to fully commit to my partner over the years, as someone points out we were together 20 years before we married in spite her wanting to get married to me, also when we finally married I have never worn my wedding band (in part due to my not wearing jewellery) I often wonder if this is a symptom of my feeling resentment due to our early relationship, my wife fell pregnant just a month after we met & a part of me has always wondered if she did it on purpose to get away from her father? I was a guy of 22 having a blast with plans to travel the world & I suppose I blamed her for holding me back due to me doing the responsible thing & sticking around. Now don't get me wrong I don't know if this is at the root of my feeling as its not something I've delved into too much just yet.
As far as our relationship is concerned we have been pretty solid until 3 years ago when things took off in a bad way, I realised I needed to change & implemented those changes to steady the ship but it appears the changes I made were the wrong ones! Its hard to know which route to follow when your partner doesn't give you any direction... I know at times I can get pretty intolerable with an angry streak that I don't like in myself but this would only result in some shouting & cursing to get things off my chest then that's it, no threats or violence or sulking etc.. this is something I have been discussing with a therapist, so I hope it will not happen again? But there has been no infidelity that I know of & the only other thing she has suggested she's been unhappy with is how I left her to raise the kids & run the house while I just provided an income which is fair enough, I guess I've had an old fashioned approach to our relationship & haven't been emotionally attached with her & the kids, I deeply regret this aspect & have been working overtime in recent months to try to correct that because I do love my family deeply.