Hi All, Last night was good too except h went to chiropractor and is in more pain. I cooked din, we watched a movie, snuggled.
He just emailed me asking if we are going hiking. ++
I'm feeling pretty good, except some anxious thoughts are popping into my head. I'm trying to STOP and think about something else. I'm also trying to continue to give h what he wants and needs and be considerate of him and not pushy. So, this is fine, until a few days go by. I must expect the wanting to crazy-make and have a plan as to what to do before I do that.
I wish I had more faith. I just don't always believe that things will get better when evidence has shown that it does and the only thing that differs b/t bad & good is my attitude and perception of things. Surely, when I look for good, I see good and when I look for bad, I see bad. Must focus!
H was very affectionate last night and snuggly. A lot of times when I cook he comes up behind and hugs me and puts his head on my shoulder. I love that!!! +++ So, guess I gotta keep cookin'!
I also get freaked out when I start thinking about how much I love him and really open up my heart to him. I am so afraid to "give up control." That if I let my guard down, I will be bamboozled.
