I'm on bizaro land right now, last 36 hrs have been weird to say the least. Friday woke up determined to db my way out of my funk, worked well, had a great day, a fair amount of interaction with h mostly to do with getting the last of stuff out of our old house, H had to drop off some things to my house that night as I 2 as headed put for dinner with a friend, we ended up getting a lift with h instead of taxi (2 min car ride) so that was fine, and then I took all of my good independent work and threw it away, H had left some money on our joint account and I decided that it would be a great idea (mmm sarcasm inserted here) to spend a shed load of it in the pokies, stellar idea on my behalf, and my even more brilliant justification was that h has spent $709 on a hotel for him and ow next week. so this morning, full of remorse, I fessed up to h, and he wasn't happy and I totally get it, I wouldn't have been either, so of course I did what I do and after apologizing, I cried, though at least not hysterically, got the boys, came home. Then when h finished work he was coming to my place to lay the floor in my home salon, I thanked him and again apologised for last night's actions. He was comforting me, this is the pattern I see with h, the more I seem to crumble, the more he feels he needs to look after me,and it does my head in! I then had to drop the boys to his place and by this stage I am over tired, over thinking and teetering on the edge, H then insists I stay for dinner with him and the boys, and somehow, he was talking to a friend of his and they decided they would go out, H asked if I would watch the boys, that he'd pay me (Umm I'm their mother not a freaking babysitter) I said I don't mind staying with them but refused to be paid and that if I found out I was being treated like a chump while he met up with ow, I would be really p*ssed, he then tells me ow is away for weekend with her d,(who does this a lot apparently)
so right now I am currently on h couch watching pay tv, eating his chocolate, with all the heaters set on high. Welcome to bizaro land....
on a another note, well not that different, heard some interesting info on the sitch between h and ow, seems they've already had a couple of arguments about her "behavior" around her male friends, seems h isn't very happy about how "friendly" she is, interesting considering they're still meant to be in that 'honeymoon' period that the cracks are already starting to show....
