Hey my friend, Glad to see you are back on the "up" side of this. If you ever find the secret of how not to feel hopeless at times...let me know. I get the very same feelings that I can't change, I'll never lose my jealousy and insecurities, etc. For awhile I thought I was "cured" so to speak and when something happened to make those old feelings pop back up, I was ready to pretty much give up and shoot myself. Truth is...I WANT a R...with my H...but I need to get this under control before it will happen. I know it can be done...I never felt this vulnerable with my X. Maybe it is just certain ppl that spark it in me.
As far as the time out...and what might work...I just have a good cry (and scream sometime) and have it out with God, the whole pity party. Then I let Him speak to me through His word and allow Him to comfort me. If you truely give it all over to the Lord, He will give you the strength to bear it. Of course...make your escape from H to do the crying thing as it seems to be an issue with him. I wish I could go back to the days I NEVER cried. Now I am a total waterwork!!!! Lousy emotions!!! J/K.
And remember...your H is at the place where he wants to work at this with you! Embrace that. I give you permission to think of my sitch everytime you want to freak out over your sitch. What I wouldn't give to be actually working together with my H!!! I envy you that. Enjoy your H...it sounds like he loves you ALOT and after all this...he is still hanging in there. You thank him by staying tough and making the greatest M ever! Take care, Karen and God bless! Debi
