Raine, first of all, we all admire your strength. You have shown unconditional love in a situation most people would run from. Thank you for sharing.
A lot of what your H said re: why he cheated, how he felt he couldn't undo what he did, why he kept behaving the way he did, etc... It really echoes what a lot of the other MLCers who have reported from the other side of the fog have said. I think we all fear on some level they won't try to come back, even if they want to, because of the shame.
I am so glad you are rebuilding with your H. You deserve nothing but the absolute best.
Best to you and your family!!!
Me: 39 H: 45 Second marriage for both H left 12/2013 M:4 T:5.5