Thanks FY for bringing me back to perspective. I had been doing well but I think his increase in spinning and confusion has me a little riled up. Time to plant my lighthouse back on the rock!
I do a boot camp program that is really more like a family- we do HIIT ( high intensity interval training) which is supposed to be more effective than cardio or weights alone. I try to get there 3 times a week. Our coach is awesome- she focuses on positive mindset, loving yourself where you're at- not just when you've reached a goal, and provides lots of sound nutrition recommendations. It has been great and I find myself wanting to be tortured by my workouts and upset if I have to miss!!
It was really nice that H wanted to help take care of me. He stopped by today as well and bought me a new BP cuff. Is also driving me to work later to pick up my charts and my car.
I so identify with the " find someone deserving of you" comments. Those have decreased significantly but he will still say every once in awhile that I should find someone that's able to make me happy and not so messed up.
His insight is definitely encouraging. He's not looking outward to fulfill his needs nearly as much, but looking inward is still painful. Baby steps.
By the way BP already much better today since switching back to brand name med. Whew!
Me 41 H 40 M 20 T 23 S 19,16, 8 D 13 BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015 Life is about daring greatly, about being in the arena- Brene Brown
