new sociable hobbies. sounds great.
i would like to find outreach or volunteer groups that i can join.
any suggestions?

Great point, my sense of duty comes from a place of love. we had love that was in the clouds. intense passion. then things trailed down. perhaps her stress, hormones or losing interest in me.

i feel super guilty about every instance of pain i have brought her and i have experienced the scrooges future spirit vision. i do not want to be without my wife.

charity events would be great too where i can actually help. any specific suggestions?