Sounds like there is a big build up to the move out date? What's your fear with that?
The buildup is mostly in my mind, H hasn't even found a place yet.
One of my fears is having to tell the kids, they have no idea. Sept 1 is right after S18 goes to college and D11 starts a new school where she knows literally no one. D16 will be at the same school at least. I just think daddy walking out is a crappy way to start a new school year.
I am afraid of the financial situation, H makes about 5 times what I do and although he has agreed to continue to pay everything, I am concerned about how much he will be spending not living with us.
I am afraid that once he leaves he will be so blissfully happy with OW that he will never come back. I am afraid that he will start taking OW out in public and having me or my kids deal with that. I live in a big city but our community is very small-town.
I dread having to tell people. And no, I wont go around announcing it, but once everyone gets back from summer vacation there will be invitations from other couples. Or people asking about H at kids games, etc.
I feel like such a failure. I know it's not all my fault, not even mostly my fault, but I just feel like I should have been able to keep my man happy enough not to leave. I feel like everyone will look at me with pity.
I'm afraid that I will be lonely. I am lonely now.
I am afraid that the entire burden of childcare will be on me now. He did very little to start with, but now he'll have an excuse to do even less.
The list goes on. Many of these perhaps seem unreasonable, but this is just what came out when I started typing. I don't want to go back and edit to make myself sound better, this is real.
