I'm sorry you are struggling right now. I'm not and expert although I think everyone has to figure out with those reels of film in our minds. I think what has been most effective and beneficial for me is to not think in the future. Take everything as it happens as I never had control of that stuff in the first place.
One day at a time. If you feel yourself feeling anxious, take a deep breath and say to yourself that you can handle no matter what comes your way. And you can!!!
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer