I finally went to an IC today. Not sure if I will go again, she kept asking me why I am trying to save the marriage when it takes two people to work on the R. She says my W has checked out already, so why do I stay? She wants me to come to grips with my feelings of loss.
Also, I talked to my 4th and 5th L today. They all read from the same playbook it seems, go to mediation, CYA and then move out. Not sure what to do any more. It seems friends and family all say the same thing also. It is so frustrating and makes me pissed off and angry.