I am the prize

[daring]

Today was quite a whirlwind.
Had IC last night which stirred up a lot of things with me and I was feeling a bit more emotional. Then didn't sleep well and this morning started feeling physically sick. Started as nausea and then I started feeling very fatigued with chest pressure and sweaty/clammy. Made me very concerned so I called my Cardiologist who had me come right over. ( I see him due to high BP and very bad family history for cardiac disease). My staff walked me over and then I texted H what was going on. He was clearly very worried and said he was on his way. I told him he could wait to see if I needed ER admit but he came anyway.
Cardiac eval was fine but my BPs were sky high. Cardiologist asked me about my stress level and I told him what was going on-'turns out he's dealing with same.
He talked to me about managing my stress and eating/exercise which I told him if been doing very well with and dropped a size and toned up. I switched this week to generic form of my BP med and he thought that might be the main reason for high BP.
So H wouldn't let me drive home, gathered all my stuff and brought me to my house. Then went and filled my new med for me and got dinner for the kids. He hung around until evening making sure I was ok. But he seemed almost mad. I even asked him and he said no he was just worried and has not been sleeping
well himself so he's not communicating well.
After he left he texted asking if I was doing ok- I said yes and thank
You again for your help.
Then he sent a very strange text: "no matter our marital status or who is sleeping in your bed I will always be here. Just need to know what's going on a little more clearly if it's from a distance".
I was very confused. Granted my staff did tell him that I debated letting him know initially and I think that really bothered him.
So I texted back that only the dog was currently sleeping in my bed and I didn't mean to offend him was just thankful. I also asked what info he needed more clearly.
He texted back it's all good, he was reading and it's hard to read context with text messages, especially when we are tired.

So my take on all of this- BP med is getting fixed and hopefully that is bulk of issue. I have been an emotional mess last couple of days and clearly that is impacting my health. On other hand these are issues I need to process b/c they hit my own old wounds from childhood. Need to find a balance on working through them.
With H- he seems very restless. Lots going on with him ( job change,
Not sure when/how much he will be paid as he does startup, has to look for new place to live) but there seems to be more.
The comment on marital status or who's in my bed, he also said in regards to me not letting him know something going on with S16 until later " I know, I get it, I don't live here".
Warning- about to mind read- it's like he's mad that he walked out and that there is more distance. But he's not ready or is too scared yet to change his mind.
Is this a potential part of coming out if the tunnel? He definitely keeps mentioning all the " emotional stuff" he is processing and seems to need to go through.

Could use any advice or observations out there.....