Why do I C-make??? 1. To get attention-as they say about dogs, negative attn. is better than no attn. 2. To get WOA-allow this doesn't work as H stopped reassuring me a loooooongg time ago 3. To make H prove that he loves me by putting up with this 4. I have trouble being happy in peaceful times!!! 5. I don't feel comfy just "being" w/h. I feel the need to entertain or do something in order to keep his attn. 6. Sometimes it feels good to cry and yell. 7. I hope to get h to do what I want, when I want, how I want. 8. I want h to appreciate me (and this works how??) 9. I am afraid that he will leave me so I make it so he will and/or make it so that I am less committed, therefore, leaving before he does. 10. Being really close, intimate, accepting, loving is really really scary to me, so I do it to create distance. 11. I like the "rush" of fighting and making up - though h does NOT "kiss and make up." (So, this isn't working either!)
