MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART III

[ItHurts]

Hi Thorn, oh I'll still be here checking in on you guys. You all have been so supportive during the many lonely and painful nights. I wish I shared your view that she is "running" as she presents it more as "exploring and evolving." I don't get the impression she is running from anything but of course I hope you are right! It certainly does feel so final. It really is final I guess. She's gone, we have no further reason to contact each other. She wants to remain friends and I just can't right now, I wouldn't be a "true" friend still loving her as I do. Hugging her close for the last time was so great yet so painful. I can't believe all of this happened after 18 years. Life can sure be cruel at times taking the most important things to us away in a moment.
I pray you're right, I pray she still has unresolved issues with me, I pray she finds her way back and that I am able to take her. The hope I've had the past couple months is really gone now. I just don't see anything to hope for since she will be so far away. I'm sure she'll be home to visit family and such but when she told me she was moving that far away...I really just lost all remaining hope I had. It is truly a dark, dark day today and I haven't hurt this bad since all of this first happened back at the end of April/early May.
Thanks for your support my friend and I will be around for sure...especially to read the stories with happy endings. That makes me feel better when I hear of others in my shoes getting the end result they prayed for. You guys are all just great and I thank you all for helping me through this these past couple months...I really have no idea what I would've done with my DB book and you all. Even though I didn't manage to "bust" my divorce...I do feel like a stronger and better person now. I just have a hole in my heart is all.