Is it possible (just musing here) that you're "crazymaking" with h because you want him to convince you one way or the other re. the M? IOW, holding him to these "nothing you do is good enough" standards as a way to convince yourself that you're right, he's not the one for you? OR, even more remote, if he did do ALL that you wanted ALL the time that then you'd know "ok, he's it"?
Or maybe you just want him to continually prove to you over and over again that you're selected by him? kind of a regular boost to your sagging confidence?
what if you cut both of you some slack? You don't have to KNOW whether or not this m. is "right" for you at this moment...can you ACCEPT the ambiguity? Can you say to yourself...I don't need to decide now. Maybe lightening up on your need to know will allow you to lighten up on him.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
