Mer-CMU! (Cracking me up! I have to be diff. and not use LOL)
He wasn't always like this. He used to be more expressive, romantic, emotional, & compassionate. I know he HAS it in him. And, a lot of our ML is great-a lot of passion, and he really takes care of me. I try to take care of him too, and I think why not do what feels good more often?
When I say I have told him what would help-you said he prob. doesn't "know" what to do, when I have given him several examples!
So, he does the opposite of what I ask. How do I shut my big mouth and quit asking??? I am seriously beating a dead, buried 6 feet under horse with a stick that is broken and frayed from beating so much!!!
I'm tired of being the one that has to do ALL of the work! Sorry...OK, so a lot of people here are doing that. I guess I just haven't convinced myself that this m is worth it.
YES, I admit to being a crazymaker. I like stimulus! As you see, I have mentioned that I hate to sit and watch tv (unless it is Sunday.) I mean how many CSI, SVU, Miami, Special Crime, Sodomy Unit shows can I frickin' watch in one week??? When we were dating, I told him I didn't like tv, "Oh...me neither..." was his response.
There have been positives here and there!: He came to meet me on Monday after I went r-c'ing. He offered to ditch his friends to be with me on Wed. (this is huge) He is talking more about biking, and asked if I want to get a road bike and we would pursue more road biking w/club. (we have mtn. bikes) He said he would like to play raquetball, go mtn. biking sometime... He has complimented me a couple times in the past couple weeks.
IT'S NOT FAIR! IT'S NOT FAIR!!! Why do I have to take ALL the blame? I guess that is what I keep coming back to. Why do I always have to be the one begging for forgiveness and groveling? (I really stopped doing this pretty much). Why why why???
Ok, enough whining? I know Sage is right. I know that all of you are right. I even paid $130 that I barely have to have Joann tell me what is right. So why do I keep doing what i KNOW is wrong???
