35... holding my ground... keep the focus on ME

[makingmagic]

Thanks to all who responded.

I thought when I posted my question, that I had answered it as well. I just wanted confirmation/support that my response was a good one.

Gabby... no, I am not trying to make it evident with my words, but my ACTIONS.

Saying "no thank you" is harder to say when its what you ultimately want.

Matt ... I have changed the way I behave (in front of him), since June 13. I still struggle on the inside, this is true. I am trying to learn how not to care about his response/reaction. But, I still do. I agree he needs to treat me the "right" way. I get confused by his "offers", wondering if these are his attempts to make headway in the right direction. Keeping things on HIS terms. Although, I do see them as lazy attempts. Not clear. He is keeping his option open with me, on HIS terms.....

I need MY terms met, as well.

I'm not so sure he thinks I am available to him, as I haven't been since June 13 (cold & grumpy). Last night, I went to the concert & left work in a rush. As I was running out the door, he was asking if I wanted to help him with a work issue. I said, no...sorry, I've got things to do. I realized that I left whirlwind, kinda rude, so texted later to apologize and to say that I had to leave earlier than expected. He texted back... several times throughout the evening. He didn't know what I was up to....

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Had a great time at the concert. My GF is the BEST!