advice needed - please help

[stacey9]

Thank you asat.

I just don't know where to go from here. I am once again at rock bottom. It doesn't seem to matter what I say or do, he continues to despise me. He knows me. He knows me better than anyone, and knows I am a good person and I do not deserve this.

I have had a sleepless night with everything he said running through my mind. Before he left he said he was happy to continue paying the mortgage, and to transfer all the bills over to me. Now that has changed and I feel he wants me to help finance his new, shiny, loved up life.

I have kept my dignity throughout this mess, and the only thing I have asked him for is his house key, which he refused to hand back.

I feel as everything is closing in on me with no way out. He will be confiding to the OW and telling her I am an evil, greedy woman and how he is so glad to be away from me. I'm wondering now if he has had this all planned for years, waiting until the kids are older. Then can justify his reasons for leaving as my insecurities and suspicious nature and say he has never been happy for years.

I think I am feeling sorry for myself today, and I apologise for that. But I just don't know what to do.

Sad, lonely and beat.

Stacey x