Finding my way - part 3

[Meghan]

Thanks, Maybell.

I think I'm mostly just feeling jerked around again. I'm sure he didn't change his ticket 12 hours before he left, so he's know for at least some period of time, and dealing with it as he did is just not cool. And, of course, I wonder what it all means.

I'm sure that I can handle it (well, I think I can, anyway). The trouble is, I think I'm getting sick of handling it. I know I need patience, and 30 minutes after the message is not going to be the most patient time, and I'm sure I'll feel at least somewhat better in the morning. I'm just consistently confounded by who this person is and feel less and less willing to deal with him.

I've never tried to hurt him. I know I have hurt him, but it was never intentional. And it feels like he's trying to actively hurt me now.