MM, I'm with gabby here! This is what we have been trying so hard to tell you all along! You are so worried about how he will take what you say or do. STOP! He knows that you want a commitment or nothing. IF he EVER decides that he is wanting to give you this, he knows it's what you want. Again, he will NEVER change the way he see's you or feels about you until YOU change the way you are behaving. If you can't stop obsessing about him for you, do it because if you ever want him to see you as anything but someone he doesn't want in his life (at least romantically) you must detach. Give him a reason to look at you differently! Unless and until he starts to think he may just lose you unless he starts to treat you the 'right" way, he NEVER will.
Right now you are available to him and he KNOWS this. Stop worrying if he doesn't like you going out or having fun without him! Make sure he doesn't know just what you are up to. Shake him up a bit. Keep him wondering what you are doing and who you are with. Stop thinking about what he is thinking or feeling. Let him say you're being "cold and grumpy" and don't give a rats butt! That may just make him wonder what you're up to.
If you can't see that you need to change for yourself, than change so you will have ANY chance of him ever seeing you other than how he see's you right now!
