I feel for you, I really do. But I have to be honest that I am flabbergasted at how little of this sinks in for you. .... Can you try answering your own questions? What have you learned here in all the months you've been here?
What did you do wrong? What should you have done instead? How would you interpret her responses to you? You can't be that thick-headed...can you?
I am really at a loss here with this. ... Can you just answer my questions?
^^^ Is it really true that you are at a loss as to how to answer your questions? Then, my recommendation would be to re-read carefully ALLLL the posts and replies you've had from this board. The answers are there.
We all make mistakes and slip up and have setbacks. But if you really feel, still, at this point, that you have NO idea what you are doing wrong, then I'm not sure anyone will be able to help you. You have to be willing to help yourself.
As an experiment, could you take a stab at answering your own questions? That would show where you've gotten some growth, or what you are misunderstanding about all the advice you are getting.
