Don't know what to do, fight for it or move on

[TRDiver]

Thank you very much for support / comments. I'm keeping it mostly together.

Just having a very hard time with some of the accepting / concepts. In many ways she's swapped him for me. It is a really surreal experience to see her treating him like she did me over the past decades. She used to txt me all the time, she used to help me with lots of things, etc now she's doing the same for him. Almost like invasion of body snatchers only I was replaced by this other.

I'm just dumping it out here because for the life of me I can't understand how quickly she's replaced me with him and moved into patterns that represent our relationship; at least the good sides of it in the past. My thinking / logical side understands I hurt her quite bad and she must have checked out long ago so for her it is not so quick. But it is moving awfully fast regardless.

I also struggle knowing that there could be a chance to work on our issues if this other relationship wasn't there; but alas that's not reality. There were times when I was chasing she almost caved, in fact at one point she was willing to see if she could work it. But I must have pushed too hard and her new bond may be too strong.

Just have to dig deep and work it. Very hard though, knowing that she's earnestly a great person and I've stamped out a very strong love. She stayed through a lot and to have crushed that is horrible to me. Argggg.