one day at a time

[twinmom]

Sitting here nursing so nothing else to do but read/journal on my phone.......

I am really trying hard to live the no affection/friendship just be co-parents as long as your in contact with OW boundary I have decided on. H says he has only been in contact with her when she asked for him to repay her for car seats she purchased and for cell phone bill $$ (because H is still on her family plan)

I have no way of confirming this as we have not agreed to even working on the relationship (actually the opposite)

I just know for my sanity I can't interact with H on a friendship level while he still has ties to OW. I had an emotional evening a few nights ago and asked H to please tell me he wanted nothing to do with me, that I needed to hear the non sugar coated truth again, he refused to tell me he wanted a divorce.

Trying my best to be out of the house in the evenings or be in my room after the twins go to bed. Avoiding his calls/texts today. I have fallen into the trap of answering his calls/texts immediately and sharing funny kid stories with him throughout the day :o(

One freaking day at a time! Today he went into work at 10 and I spent the morning in bed and then slowly showering/doing my hair and make up. I ignored a phone call and didn't reply to a text for over an hour. When he gets home I have coupons that expire today so I will go shopping.