I'm doing my best Starsky to protect my heart. I think I need to really be cool as you said. I admit I was very eager to enter the talks with him as he stated he wanted to do, however he clearly is not ready. My eagerness may have pushed him back and may have disillusioned my stance.

I have been rereadig HB and TMAK as per bea's suggestion and it has helped. Slowed my mind down. I can ' see' better. He is confused and not yet in Acceptance I think. I believe from his behaviours and words he is is reconnecting at a very slow pace. Somewhere between withdrawal and Acceptance. He is so confused.

It's a very awkward situation. We spent almost all year separated and this summer we are together as a family ( with his brothers' family and sister's family) for almost a month. Living together, etc. Seeing him everyday and living together is awkward for me too.

I'll stay my course, my stand, my work and my faith. Keep protecting my heart too. X thanks Starsky x

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home