Still confused

[dawgy]

I know im not supposed to mind read but it is difficult . Im feeling wiped of energy today after a full day of major anxiety yesterday . I had detachment down pretty good for a short time but since she left a week ago and came back a few days later ive been a complete mess . It feels like she has total control after doing that . Maybe thats why she did it to gain control .If thats the reason then it worked . I gotta get a hold of myself and get to the point of acceptance . If it wasnt for the kids i could do this , but my total fear of hurting them has got me shaking in my boots . I gotta man up and figure out how to save my kids from the pain and make everything alright