Chapter 2: Letting Go

[juliegayle]

Interesting. I saw myself as Elsa. Having to hide my true self. As a child I was very concious about not acting like my mother because she was "crazy". They said manic-depression at the time. Today she would be diagnosed bipolar. (H is diagnosed by bipolar btw. Add in alcoholism. .. not a good mix)

Anyway .. back to my term paper.

So Elsa represents the little girl who is afraid to let our her crazy silly fun side and becomes an obsessive compulsive ( gloves). But can't hide forever and when people see the real her it is just like she expected. Having a child released me. I am always dancing and singing with him. That was ok with h but if I got too silly he would say I was turning into my mom. Ss15 and I made a fun video a few months back and we're rolling on the floor laughing. H was disgusted.

So as Elsa learned her true potential and then needed to learn how to control it and integrate it into her everyday life... so did I let out the true me and continue to explore and get to know who that really is. In my version... all the other characters are just there for entertainment purposes. (Hmm mm just realized that it is all about me)


All that to highlight that our inner world really does influence the outer world. Who is to say that my reality is better than someone else's reality. I really try to remember this when dealing with h. Except when he is super mean. Then I don't deal with him at all. I tune him out, or walk away. (Most of the time)

H hates Frozen because of all the singing. I have always loved musicals and often said I wish the world was a musical and everyone would simultaneously break into song. H used to think that was adorable. Now of course... not so much.