YOU are getting really, really tired!! Your mind is calling out for a little attention. When you buy those flowers for your D., get something for yourself.
Take a break from home - maybe for an hour or two. Maybe you can alternate doing what you want w/ your D. and then something for you the next time. You are her life raft - if you are not good, she isn't either.
I know when I'm fatigued, every single thing looks awful. I feel at my wits end ...
I read a book called The Artist Way years ago (not relevant subject here, for expressive arts). What I loved was the weekly artist date. At that time, I thought of a place or thing I wanted to do & that was my ('me') date for the week. It forced me to set aside time for myself, doing something that I wanted to do. I felt great after a few months (should have kept it up!)
You need some YOU time soon, get your 'center', and then return to the reality of the sitch and go from there. p.
pbetra ---- M: 15 yrs (in 2014) BD: 6/03/2014 Infidelity ('known' from July 2014) Denied PA Feb 2015 2 leave Mar 2015 (left early Summer). Some contact. Back briefly 2017 (after family death) Separated 2017
