Bea, thank you for the kind words and support. I wonder if it is easier for the widows. I think that I had more energy and kept going when I had some hope for my M. I have very little of it left. I just feel like giving up.

It is not only the flying part that made H to decide to end the M. There was my contribution to the problems too. Plus, it is just the whole different life style that H wants now, that includes him not taking care of the house (he still has to take care of the condo though), not taking care of me (it requires some emotional involvement and some work), mot flying, not pretending to be a good guy, etc. He wants to live at the vacation home. He would love to do it full time, but he cannot, he has to make money to be there for a few months a year. But, these few months, he wants to be there 24/7. I don’t fit into this live anymore. I have to work too, and I’m far away from the retirement age.

What I don’t understand though is how he thinks he will be able to find a woman who would be willing to do this life style with him and be free to travel like that. At the same time, how is he going to support her? Does he expect her to find temp jobs? I can only think of one “profession” to be able to do this anywhere any time... A h@@ker…

And, forgot to mention. H doesn’t even like the word “therapy”. He would be adamantly against it. His Mom forced him into some kind of therapy when he was a teenager, claiming that he had a drug addiction (pot.) This was after his parent’s divorce. I always thought that it helped H to develop good coping skills and positive outlook about life. I always thought that he was a lot wiser than I am. Now I’m thinking that he was just pretending, maybe the therapy was not good for him at all. Maybe it even made more damage. IDK.

M:50
H:52
S28 (my S from previous marriage)
M:17 + 3
BD: 06/12
S: 06/12 - H works in another state