Saving my family - Part 12

[Scorp7]

Well, things seem to have hit a stand still with my W. She is for sure involved with another guy. I don't know that it's physical at this point but she is definitely very involved with him. That to me is kind of a deal breaker. Obviously there's no chance of a R if she's with someone else.

My life is very full and busy. When the kids are with me every other week we have an amazing time together and we are all very happy. When they are with my W for the off week I've got a million things going on so I can't say I can fit much more into my life right now.

I still very much want my kids to have both their parents with them again someday. That is out of my hands it seems. I've come so far from the person I used to be and that counts for a lot. My kids have a great Dad, we'll always have each other.

So, here I am, 10 months into this thing. The relationship with my W is night and day better than it was when this started. We can talk about the kids on the phone, text each other and sit down together for a meal and hang out every week. I want to believe that it can still improve, that there might still be hope for us. I admit though that my hope is fading. I was totally responsible for my part in the breakdown of the M. That is the past. I'd hoped that my W could see a new future, a new start for our family and at least give that a shot for our kids. It would seem that isn't in her plans.

How long do I wait? Another 10 months? 2 years? I just don't know. How can I abandon any thoughts of a R when that would be closing the door on our family?