I'm so glad you've already described some of the issues in your relationship; that will give people a strong foundation to start providing specific support to you.
After finding out about the marital issues, I like to start off by asking: Who was Elsa when your H fell in love with you?
That's important. Because we need to find her again.
I'm guessing you're on moderation right now (unless things have changed here). Just keep posting until you're taken off.
We've got your back here!!
M: 40 H: 44 Married 14 years S11 & D6; D20 & D19 from previous M 2BDs/PAs, 8 years apart Piecing: April 2014