Train, roll on ...

[Train]

You guys are seriously the best. And you've each given me something to consider.

The fact that there's maybe no "clear-cut" path for me validates my feelings and concerns a little.

I *do* think that whatever I do, I should embrace it and do it to the best of my ability. That way, I have confidence in me.

I'm just deathly afraid I'll add up to $90K of debt to our lives (by way of school loans ... and I'm still paying my undergrad loans!!) and then decide I'd rather stay home. It'll take me four years to get through law school in the part-time/evening program I would start.

I NEVER would have assumed I'd find peace and happiness in being a SAHM. But here I am.

I'll talk to H a little more about it, too. I guess another issue is that I feel every time I talk to him about it (and we have opened up our lines of communication quite a bit, though it still takes me asking questions to get him to talk sometimes), I feel this particular subject is so intertwined with our past (I'm making this decision based on his history) that maybe he feels like I'm constantly reminding him of our past.

I dunno. Kinda confusing.

I heart all y'all. You provide the best support - and ask the best questions - in the world. You really have my brain thinking.