today has been a weird one, on one hand, I was busy all day with clients, which was great, and working from home again is awesome, I can get things done between clients and i'm enjoying my new home.
minimal communication with h today, all old house related or kids related, which isn't a bad thing, just felt more distance than the past few days, I know he's obviously spending time with the ow while he doesn't have the boys, and though I know it's a real thing, it still smarts, especially after the 'closeness' of last week.
i'm assuming this is the dance that happens when the ow is now out in the open so to speak. and my role now is to continue to be the best version of me.
and I guess that I need to detach a little more, in a friendly way, let him know the porch light is on, give him him the space to work this through, remember that he has his own part in this journey, and I have to continue with mine.
having said all that I would dearly love to kick her in the head, I know that's not very nice, and i'd never even acknowledge her presence, but man, just one smack, right in the kisser!!
i'm sure I've asked/said it before, but all this backward/forward stuff is normal isn't it, the wah lets the guard down alittle, panics, guard goes up(in my opinion) and no doubt pressure from the ow....sigh, keep on moving forward
