Thanks for checking in. Things are going ok. Not great. I'm doing great with GAL, and can't wait for my upcoming vacation. I realize I still care for my W a lot, which is why I'm still in this boat. I'm doing my best.
Hard to know if I had a setback or not. Kids called me to go swimming with them. I couldn't say no. It was a great three hours of time with kids, until W started blaming me for her body changing with kids. It's bizzare, because she actually looks the best she's ever looked since she has kids. Her self perception is her own though. At that time I regretted going. Thought it was for the kids though, and they were happy I came.
Been dark besides that, and she is now away. I know she's still in contact with OM. Intelligence..... No way she is stopping soon. Overall, have to say, I'm almost at a point where I don't care, which is good I think.
She's away for three days now, then I leave on my holiday for two weeks. Can't wait. I realized the special things that count to me.
My daughter tonight told me tonight "that her and her brothers are big fans of me, and they love me". Six year old treasures that can't be beaten. That's what I live for
I'll write some more musings tomorrow. I'm off to play some hockey.
