First post, confused

[asat82]

I really appreciate your feedback sandi, and I totally agree. I started reading the threads back then, but I was really just browsing and didn't get too deep into them until more recently, because I thought things were getting better, I didn't know that I was just getting played. I read just a little bit back then. Now with what I have been looking at recently I realize everything I have done has been wrong.

I have been very close to no contact over the past 3 weeks, minus my request for mail, and a couple of responses to her texts. I decided that I needed to break this to finally let her know that I was not okay with any of this, and now I am not ok with the affair that is going on or that mindset.

At first she told me it was good that she was seeing others, because there was no one good out there. Then all of that changed, and I was a pushover and just hoping to not upset her for too long. With all of this time to myself recently and reading these boards, I have grown a lot and gone back to my old strong self, and finally took a stand.

I really appreciate your feedback and will be dark and keep my strong stand against the affair. Thank you for the wake up call and for your support.