Finding my way - part 3

[Meghan]

Talked to H. briefly on IM tonight - I needed to tell him that I'm no longer at my parents'. I kept it very brief, but asked if he wanted anything from the grocery store when I go tomorrow. It seemed like a somewhat considerate but not overdone gesture in the moment, since I have to go anyway, but now that I think about it I hope it doesn't seem like talking about the future.

He asked how my visit was, which I didn't expect, so I gave him a tiny bit of info. I asked how his is going in return, and he said it was hot and kind of gross but good, and that he got to see some friends and his family.

I have no sense of what he's thinking or feeling, and so I'm trying not to analyse the fact that he asked or the little bits of purely factual information that he gave me. Best to leave it alone and not raise hope or torment myself with less desirable possibilities. I'm more focused on the latter right now.

I'm still fighting the feeling that I should have been more in touch with him as a way to counter his complaints of not enough connection and intimacy. Must remember that he wanted space and to see if he missed me...